Leadership... a Blessing and a Curse.

Being a leader is a blessing and a curse. It's a blessing because we are given the opportunity to be in a position to change people's lives.. It's a curse because sometimes we have to be someone we are not.

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As a leader, we have to do whatever it takes to motivate, push, inspire, coach, and develop our team... to bring them to places they've never been. To push them outside their comfort zone. To show them the way to greatness. How do we do this?

There are 3 sides to a leader - who we are. who we want to be. who we need to be. 

The most important of the 3 sides of a leader is who they NEED to be. This is why being a leader is so challenging-- a lot of times, who we NEED to be is not who we naturally are. A leader who is naturally relationship-oriented sometimes needs to be more of a driver when put in position to fix a process that is broken. A leader who is naturally a strong driver for results needs to be more relationship-oriented when put in a position of addressing culture/morale problems. A leader who is naturally more hands-off sometimes needs to be more micro-managerial when they are given a team that has never been held accountable.

This is why leadership can be a curse - it's hard to alter our natural style/approach to fit what a team needs... But, the best leaders have the ability to do it.

Take a dialed, solid team. The leader of this team doesn't need to be micro-managerial, but instead be more of a cheerleader and guider. The leader of this team can take a step back and allow the team members to flourish, create and implement ideas, be innovative and creative. This team is self-directed.

Take a team that has been struggling and unaccountable for quite some time. The leader of this team needs to be micro-managerial, needs to over-validate, needs to be more aggressive in driving results, and needs to be extremely close to each team member's development. Even though the team may totally dislike and feel annoyed with how close the leader is to their work, in the end when the team becomes dialed and the team members find themselves so much stronger, on point and better leaders themselves, they will thank their leader for being so involved and hands-on. And the ones that can't take the heat will eventually walk out of the kitchen anyway (which is a good thing). Once this team becomes solid, it is now on the right path to become a self-directed team... and the leader can now start taking steps back into a cheerleader/guider role.

One goal of leadership is to develop teams so that they can function just as well (if not better) without the leader present... to develop their team so much that they can say.."shit, who needs a leader when we got our team?" 

We know that we, as leaders, have done all we can do for our team when they are now the leader of the team. And before you know it, the entire team is made up of leaders... Who needs followers? I don't. I need leaders.


And it's my job to create those leaders. 

The One and Only, You.

Single and ready to mingle? In a relationship with someone? Currently dating? In an open relationship?  Hmmm.
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What about this one...

Single and, happy being with just yourself? 

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There is nothing wrong with being alone. On the contrary, there's everything right in being alone. I think that a lot of people miss out on being just with themselves.. chillin' with just yourself.. going to the movies with just yourself... spending weekends with just yourself.. and relying just on ... you guessed it... yourself.

In order to be fully and completely happy in a relationship with someone else, you gotta be fully and completely happy in the relationship you have with yourself first. It's so easy to get distracted or preoccupied by the gifts other people bring into your life... happiness, laughter, pleasure, attention, affection, love, nurture.. these are all wonderful gifts that we are privileged to receive from other people, and we should cherish and value these things.

But what happens the moment these gifts are taken away, discontinued or just one day stop happening? I can guarantee that while unconditional love from other people does exist, it's absolutely nothing you can depend on. You can only depend on one thing... and one thing only.

Your own unconditional love.

Before you can have any successful relationship (platonic or romantic), you have to first work on and perfect the relationship you have with yourself.

It's funny though, because being with just yourself is a friggin' hard thing to do for a lot of people, including myself (but I'm working on it). It's so much easier to be around other people and feed off their energy, to receive compliments that make you feel good, to go out and have fun with friends... this is easy to do! What's hard is being with yourself in solarity and feeding off your own energy, giving yourself compliments that make you feel good, and going out and having fun by yourself. This is hard because it's scary being alone. There's no one there to distract you from things you might've been hiding from from a long, long time.

The cue that tells us we can be happy and satisfied with someone else is the moment we realize we are able to live happily, comfortably and satisfied alone. And watch, once you are able to get to the point where you are best friends with yourself, you won't yearn so much for the presence of someone else. Don't ya love the irony here, people!

Being single and ready to mingle is fun (trust!!), and relationships (platonic or romantic) are fulfilling and wonderful, but all are almost a waste of time if, at the end of the day, you're not totally secure, happy and comfortable with just...




yourself.

Angels on Earth

She raised 5 kids in a 3 bed, 1 bathroom home in San Francisco. She's gone to church every Sunday for the past, well actually, her whole life. She sings in the choir every Sunday. She keeps a kitchen that always has tons of home cooked Arabic food ready to eat. She won't be happy until you are completely, overwhelmingly stuffed with her food. She has the most beautiful smile and caring eyes. She is probably the most popular senior citizen I know, as her telephone line is always busy (she has a ton of girlfriends from church). She loves watching her soap operas, especially Days of Our Lives. She loves to dance. She won't go to sleep until she knows that each and every one of her children are safe. She is the glue that keeps my family so tight. She is charming, warm hearted and a wonderful human being.

She is my Teta.





It's so important to treasure and appreciate the people in our lives who have been there for us.. the people who love us and the people who would sacrifice anything for us. The individuals in our lives who protect, love and guide us are, in other words, our angels. This is what angels do... love, protect and guide. Many times we don't realize that we have many angels here on earth.. whether they are our parents, grandparents, friends, a co-worker, mentor, professor, neighbor or a significant other.

Teta is one of my special angels here on earth. And there's nothing, and I mean nothing, I wouldn't do for her.

If it wasn't for you.

If it wasn't for you... what would it be?

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There's always talk about companies and organizations mission statements and reasons for being. But what about our own, individual, personal mission statement or reason for being? Our reason for being is the one most important thing we own.  And the cool thing is, we can chose what that is... and then make it happen.

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Why are you here?   What is your purpose in life? What mark are you going to make on this earth? What are your goals, desires, passions?

When I ask people these questions, so many of them have said, "You know..I don't know, I never really thought about it," or "To be happy," or "To become a millionaire" or "To live until I'm 100" ... I can't help but think, "That's it?" Being happy and wealthy and dying old are things we all want -- that's a given.. we should all strive for happiness, health and wealth. But, a "life purpose" is so much deeper than to just achieve that.

To me, a life purpose is bringing something to this world that otherwise would not have happened if it wasn't for you.

It could be really tricky sometimes figuring out what your purpose here on earth is. And for a lot of us, it could take years to figure this out. These are the steps I took to figure out my life's purpose... Maybe it will help you too.

Find out what you are truly passionate about... for example, dancing, helping others, the environment, medicine, therapy, music, sports, etc.... and then, figure out a way you can make an IMPACT on whatever it is your passionate about. Figure out a way to create positive change towards your passion... change that would not otherwise happen if it wasn't for you. 

After you figure out how to create this change (keep reading to see examples), re-create your life to where your life's purpose is aligned with your daily habits and actions. Once you do this, you'll be so much happier... because you're living a life based on what you're passionate about. What can really be better than that?

We can change some aspect of the world by simply being that change. Want to stop world hunger? Start an organization that feeds the homeless. Wish the earth was cleaner? Start a group that picks up trash through out your city, or even take a walk everyday down your street to pick up trash. Wish that more minority youth would attend college? Become a mentor to one. These are just a few examples of being that change you wish to see, even if it seems small. Small things taken together can and will have a HUGE impact. 

By pursuing things you are passionate about and contemplating what you want our world to be like for your kids and grandkids in 50 years, you can formulate your life's purpose.

Create change that otherwise would not have happened if it wasn't for you.

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If it wasn't for you, what would it be? 

Genchi Genbutsu.

What the ______ is Genchi Genbutsu?? Don't worry, I thought the same thing. Read on :).

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I never realized until recently how much we are influenced by what others have to say. I'm not saying it's necessarily a horrible thing to be influenced, actually. Hopefully, you surround yourself by intelligent, honest and good hearted people.. so if you were to be influenced, it's coming from the right place. On the contrary, the worst is when we allow ourselves to be influenced in the wrong way.

Regardless of who is influencing you, how you are being influenced, or if it's a "good" or "bad" influence.... I encourage you to genchi genbutsu. Always.
(Pronounced: gen-chee gen-boot-sue)

What the hell is genchi genbutsu? Good question! That's exactly what I thought when I heard the term. Genchi genbutsu is a Japanese term that translates to "actual place, actual thing." In other words, it means "go look, go see." In my words, it means "go find out for yourself."

Don't let yourself be influenced by what others say, even if their intentions are good. Don't allow your mind to form judgement, opinions, or most importantly, make decisions based off of what others tell or share with you. Don't fall into this trap. To me, genchi genbutsu is the way to go, always, when it comes to solving problems, finding out information or forming opinions.

If Mary thinks Joe has a problem with her, she should go straight to Joe to find out (instead of asking 3 different people if they think Joe has a problem with her). If the problem exists on the sales floor, it'll be most effectively understood and solved on the sales floor (instead of in a conference room at some corporate office hundreds of miles away). If your friends are saying that Sarah is annoying, go find out for yourself if you think Sarah is annoying.

I'm not saying that we shouldn't welcome other people's views, opinions, arguments, etc. I am definitely not saying this. If you know me, you'd know that I love to share and hear other people's ideas, philosophies, viewpoints, etc. (Oooh and how I love to debate.) What I'm saying is to be conscious, aware and proactive. Always genchi genbutsu and encourage others to do the same when you share an opinion about something.


Lastly, and my favorite part of all...:

On top of everything else, genchi genbutsu proves that gossiping is useless, pointless, dumb, a waste of time, and totally unproductive. (In fact, to me, the only thing that comes out of gossiping is bad karma... but that's a whole other subject.) If you understand what I'm talking about with genchi genbutsu and why it's so important, you'll see that gossiping is completely counter productive.. You're basically asking for others to form opinions for you. Do yourself a big favor and stay away from gossip. And if YOU ever find yourself gossiping, you have my permission to slap yourself, gently and purposefully, in the face. Crap, did I just say that?

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How do I know genchi genbutsu-ing works? Because after hearing about it from one of the most inspiring professors I've ever had, I genchi genbutsu-ed the genchi genbutsu process to see for myself if it works. And yes, it works. :)


Now, you know what you got to go do.. Go genchi genbutsu.

Don't lose your GUT.

Contrary to popular belief, I think that you should keep your gut instead of trying to lose it. Having a gut is good for you!

No, no, people people!!! I'm not talking about your TUMMY gut... I'm talking about your MIND gut.
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We are so much smarter than we think we are. Our brain is such a powerful instrument that can do some crazy cool things... We just need to learn how to use and embrace it.

We have something in us that can produce magical things, if used correctly...that's our intuition. I highly respect and admire individuals who allow their gut feelings to guide them in their decision making. This type of individual is confident in themselves. They understand that while gathering information and asking for others viewpoints is important, keeping their intuition at the forefront is just as powerful. Sometimes, they even make decisions based solely off what their gut is telling them. And they are okay if their intuition turns out to be wrong because they know that their intentions were sound.  How freaking awesome are these people? Pretty freaking awesome.

In school, we are taught to analyze facts, gather data, conduct experiments, and do research.... all great things, but do you notice a trend? None include using your own brain power, your own conscious, nor your own intuition. How easy is it to pick up a book and read? How easy is it to do research? To read what other people have come up with? To write an essay based off of factual information? Or shoot, to write an essay about someone else's intuition? Yeah, it might take a lot of time to do all the above, but it doesn't require using your conscious.

Do you think think karma exists? Why do you think the divorce rate is so high? Is your girlfriend/boyfriend cheating on you? Is there really a God? Is so-and-so telling the truth? All evidence and theory aside, what does your gut tell you?

Something we don't learn about in school is the adaptive unconscious, which Malcolm Gladwell talks about in his book, Blink. The adaptive unconscious is a fancy shmancy word that describes intuition. It is basically our capability of making very quick judgments based on very little information. This rapid cognition is real and is happening to us 24/7, but we have learned to ignore it. We have learned to not trust our natural instincts unless there is hard evidence/lots of information to support it. The irony is that a lot of times our snap judgments and first impressions can make much more sense of the world than anything else.

My gut tells me that I'm supposed to be home in northern California (even though I miss Long Beach so incredibly much). My gut tells me who are good guys and who aren't. My gut tells me that I made the right choice in choosing to work for Target (even though I was job offered by a few other good companies). My gut tells me who I should and shouldn't trust.

My gut hasn't always been right though. And that's okay. Intuition is not a guaranteed telling of something. No one can tell the future, see through walls, read minds, etc. Intuition is simply having trust in your own spirit. To some people, intuition is God talking to them.

The coolest thing about intuition, I think, is that it's yours and yours alone. Following your intuition is a solo move - you act on what you are telling yourself to do, without anyone else's influence. The more you embrace your intuition, the more and more self-confident and self-dependent you become. Pretty awesome stuff. My gut tells me that I should trust my gut... not even sure if that makes sense, but I have a gut feeling that it does.

What is your gut telling you?

The Present is a Gift.

The present is a gift. It really is.

If you pay close attention to your thoughts, how many of them are of the past or future? Driving to work, laying in bed trying to fall asleep, showering, getting ready for the day... If you were to take inventory of your thoughts, how many times would you check off thoughts of the past or thoughts of the future? I know I, personally, would have lots of checks next to those two categories.

Sometimes we get so caught up in the past or of the future. We ponder about what happened yesterday, last week, last month, last year. We think about the rest of our lives - where we will be, what we will be doing, who we will be with. And we analyze why things have happened the way they did. Don't get me wrong, it's always good to think about the past to gather what we learned from certain experiences. And, thinking about the future is a good thing too - we should be strategic in our everyday decisions in order to get to the places we want to get to.

But, we can't forget about the now, which is probably just as, if not more, important as bringing closure to past experiences and dreaming of our future.

Ever just sit for 5, 10, shoot, 15 minutes and just... look around? Okay, okay. I know you might look kind of creepy just sitting and staring. But, well... just try not to look creepy. Anyway, what I mean is... sitting, feeling, and being in the present... appreciating your present state of mind, the nature around you, your ability to breath, the air, the sky, the clothes on your body that keep you warm, the lamp that is on to provide you lighting, having freedom. When we focus our energy on the past or the future, we forget about the blessings we have been given in the now.

"When one door closes, another door opens." Yes, cliche and probably a tad cheesy, but it's true. What I realize is I can't move on from something until I let it go. Many times we hang on to things that are no longer a part of our present. I think that we hang on to things because sometimes we are scared to let them go. By letting something go, we open the door to the unknown and unfamiliar... which really, are just new opportunities, new experiences, new people. If you want to meet new people, experience new things, and receive new opportunities, but for some reason it's not happening... try letting go of something (or everything, but baby steps!!) you are hanging onto from your past and start focusing your energy on the now, and I betcha you'll be pleasantly surprised.

Appreciate and learn from your past experiences, and by all friggin' means be excited about your future... But most importantly, live in the present.

The past is gone - we can't do nothin' about it. The future is out of our hands.. shoot, it's not even guaranteed. But the present is here and now. And we should cherish that.


Live this, and you'll receive new gifts every moment of your life... because the present is a gift.

Mean girls finish last.

Disclaimer: This post is directed towards the men who are NOT obnoxious assholes that are just trying to see how many numbers they can get in one night. Ladies, you could go ahead and knock those guys out. This post is for the gentlemen out there.

Also, what I talk about in this post really goes both for dudes and chicks, I just see it happen way more often to guys.

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Girls piss me off sometimes.. The ones that don't appreciate the courage it takes for a man to approach her. Time and time again, whether at a bar, a club, a coffee shop, school, or wherever, I've seen guys get turned down, rejected, or straight up ignored. I mean, of course by approaching someone you are taking the risk of getting rejected... that's a given. But what I don't like is when chicks rudely and ignorantly turn someone down, when they take for granted that someone thinks they are attractive, appealing in some way, interesting... or that someone is willing to take the risk of getting rejected just to talk to them.

I give major props to the guys out there who have the courage to try to spark a random conversation with a woman, ask for a dance, or shoot, ask to buy them a drink. I mean, come on! Someone is wanting to spend money on you... someone is asking you if they could buy you a drink! Be thankful and appreciative that someone wants to do this for you. Don't act annoyed or rude. By no means am I saying fake it and accept their approach, let them buy you a drink, dance with them or give them your number. If you're not interested, that is totally fine! All I am saying is act, and more importantly, actually be, appreciative, honored and flattered. If you aren't interested in them... all you have to do is so say in a nice and humble way. You don't even have to make up an excuse for not being interested. All I am saying is... be thankful and act/be gracious to whoever is willing to take the risk of getting rejected... for you.

I have a few guy friends who refuse to approach a female. I always tell them, "who cares, just go talk to her. Be cool and a gentleman and it's all good!" They'd say that girls get approached all the time and all they do is turn guys away, and that they refused to be one of them. They'd say, "if a girl wanted to talk to me, then she could come up to me." I, honestly, don't blame guys for feeling/thinking this way. I think we've all witnessed men getting ignored or rudely rejected.. so who really could blame them?

Women don't realize how much power they have over men. Or how easily they could make a guy feel humiliated, not good enough, not attractive enough, etc. Knowing this, we could find ways to make a point to tell them that we are not interested, but in a way that doesn't ruin their night or make them feel insecure about themselves.

And ya know what? The people who are mean, rude, unappreciative... they will get theirs.

In the long run, mean girls finish last. In the long run, nice girls finish first. 


Cliff Note Equations:
Bitchy girls= Bitchy karma
Nice girls= Nice karma
(It's that simple)

My Bucket List

This list keeps on growing and growing..

All the things I want to do before I die (in no particular order):

Black Belt in Jujitsu
Become fluent in Arabic
Run a Half Marathon
Learn to horseback ride
Buy a horse
Become a millionaire (by 35, crossing fingers)
Become fluent in Spanish
Learn how to Salsa dance
Start an organization to help build confidence in others
Win a competition
Go on a cruise
Start a blog
Write a book
Write and Publish Teta’s cookbook
Travel to Palestine
Travel to Italy
Travel to at least one country in each continent of the world
Start a company
Ride on a hot air balloon
Live in a 3^rd world country for at least 3 months
Buy mom and dad each a bad-ass present
Create and publish my own font
Buy a house in full cash
Be on television
Live as a homeless person for a week
Live in the wilderness without any supplies for 3 days
Go to Las Vegas
Graduate college
Masters in something
Become a doctor of something
Be the valedictorian of masters program
Live in another state
Road trip across the US
Save someone’s life
Make HeadSTRONG world-wide
Be swept off my feet
Go to the airport, pick a random flight and travel there
Learn debka
Find Tiger Woods and Arnold Schwarzenegger and slap them
Find Angelo Mozilo and slap him
Donate $1M to charity
Visit my birthplace, Connecticut
Stand underneath a waterfall
Go skinny dipping
Ride a camel and an elephant
Meet the Spice Girls
Cliff dive
Ride a gondola in Venice
 Salsa dance in New York
Swim with dolphins
Learn how to sail
Pet a lion
Attend a gay pride festival
Stomp grapes in a vineyard
Visit Lucille Ball’s gravesite
See the Phantom of the Opera
Marry the man I’m head over heels for
Learn sign language
Have a big family
Go zip lining
Buy Michelle and her parents an awesome present
Visit all 50 of the United States
Fire a pistol
Be at Time’s Square on New Year’s Eve
Visit Dubai
Have a star named after me
Be in a music video
Become a bad ass in poker (first, learn how to play it)
Discover what makes me truly happy

Going out of your way goes A LONG way.

Too often we take the easy route. We choose to stay in instead of making it out to a friend's party, we have to do laundry which means we can't go to the networking event, it's too far so we don't go because we don't want to make the drive, there's so many people going to the graduation party so it doesn't really matter if we show up or not... In other words, we don't go out of our way because it's easier not to.

Making acquaintances is easy. But creating and building relationships and true friendships is not... it takes work. It takes energy, time and a genuine interest in getting to know someone and in letting them get to know you. So many times I've made excuses not to go to certain events or call a certain person back just because it means I'd have to go out of my way. But I have done so at a high cost.

Have you ever went to someone's birthday party and the following day they let you know how much it meant to them that you went? Or when you went to support a friend's fundraiser and a year later in conversation they told you that they'll never forget that you came. Or when you stayed an extra 30 minutes on the phone to let your friend vent to you... and then they let you know that because they were able to talk to you, their whole day turned around.

Going out of your way goes a long way.

Once I started going out of my way, so many great things have happened to me. I have gained an infinite amount of genuine relationships with wonderful people. I continue to learn more about myself and life. I have supporters in whatever I do. I also have "contrarians" that always challenge my opinions. And I always have someone to call.

I have become, and continue to become, more than just an acquaintance with so many different kinds of people, which in turn, gives me a more diverse perspective on life. Some people think that having only a handful of good friends is better than having lots and lots of friends... I 100% disagree. The more people you get to know on a personal level, the more you learn about diversity, life, and about yourself. I am the person I am today because of the tons of amazing individuals I have gotten to know on a personal level.. Before I became friends with lots of different people, I was pretty sheltered in the way I thought about things. 

The more people I get to know, the more I learn and grow, and I know that they learn and grow from knowing me.

Go out of your way to build friendships and relationships. It'll go a long way, trust me.

Choices.

Choices... We have so many of them. So many that it could drive us crazy! It's pretty incredible how our lives are literally shaped by the choices we make, isn't it? We have the power to create any life we want simply by making choices... and acting on them.

We can wake up in the morning and choose to make it a great day. And then, make it a great day.
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We can wake up in the morning and choose not to make it a great day. And then, not make it a great day.

We can make our days great regardless of what happens. There will always, always, always and... you guessed it... ALWAYS be events that will occur that may make it a little difficult, or sometimes very difficult, to make days great. Getting fired, broken up with, in a car accident, or injured are just a few nice little examples of events that can, scratch that, will occur.  These events are "conveniently" inevitable. Let's face it, this is life.

My friend's car got broken into last week, and my purse was stolen. Two days went by, and I still found myself so livid and frustrated with the situation. But then I realized that I was choosing to react that way. I snapped myself out of it, and then chose to take it as a lesson learned and move the heck on. I made choices and then acted on them.

I had planned for over a year to leave this August for the Peace Corps. I even had turned down a few job offers. Then, just a few weeks ago I find out that my program was cut because of budget cuts. I was SO heartbroken. For about a day. And then I made a choice to move on and grab another great opportunity by its balls. I acted on this choice, and within a week I secured a great job at a killer company. Why? Because I made choices... and acted on them.


It's up to only you, as an individual, to make choices. 

Make positive choices that make days great... no matter what convenient event may occur.

The one question..

I haven't been asked another question more in my life than the one I've had to answer in the past few months by family, friends, classmates, professors, etc... "So... why are you joining the Peace Corps?" It's funny, because although I've had to answer this question tons of times, I still don't know exactly how to answer it. How do you explain intuition?? That feeling deep down in your heart, mind and soul? I know that sounds cheesy, but it's so true! There are the obvious reasons -- to help in another place on earth,  experience a life changing adventure, to grow and learn, spread awareness, to learn about a different culture, to take part in positive change, etc... But really, there are tons of different avenues to fulfill those reasons. When others ask, "Can't you just particpiate in one of those volunteer programs that last a few months instead of 2 years??" Well, yes I can. But, since I'm a big believer in following your intuition... I'm following that gut feeling about PC that puts a smile on my face every time I feel it. I am excited, happy, and anxious for my departure (which is tentatively scheduled August 2011). I am also nervous and scared shitless! This is something that I've heard so many crazy stories about, something that, when I was younger, never ever pictured myself doing, and something that seems so far away, yet is approaching so soon. Right now, I need support, guidance and  wise words... (oh, and some cash would be nice!)


I've been nominated for Latin America, Business Advising, August 2011. I'm patiently waiting to receive my medical forms so I can start the medical review process. I had to complete a "pre-medical evaluation" first before starting the "regular" medical review. So, that's what I'm doing now.. waiting to pass the pre-medical review part, which should be fine. Also, I've heard that several volunteers that were initially nominated for Latin America ended up serving else where. So, I'm crossing my fingers that my region nomination, Latin America, won't be changed.. but who knows? Leaving it in God's hands.

I got my nomination letter in September 2010 for my departure of August 2011.. At that time, Aug 2011 seemed SO far away! I thought to myself, "I have almost one whole year before I leave." Well, let me just say that since then, the months have never gone by faster. I graduate from CSULB in May, move back home in June.. then, depart in August... Life is so unpredictable though, isn't it? I may be typing all of this, setting my heart and soul on it, planning for it, and truly believing that is what I'm going to do. But who really knows what'll happen tomorrow? So, for now.. I'm going to leave it at this.. PC is something that I have an amazing feeling about and that I do have my heart and soul set on... If it's meant to be, I'll be leaving in August to a third world country for 27 months  as a PC volunteer. If it's not meant to be, then wherever I end up and whatever I end up doing.. it will be meant to be ....

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(But please cross your fingers for the PC :] )